Bad blogger

I am so bad at this!! I think one of the things that I struggle with more than anything is sticking with things that I start. I do really good to start.. and then, not so much. I think about it a lot.. but I just don't DO it. Sigh. Well, now I am doing it. Update on me... This has been a REALLY bad week. I have been in bed most of the week which has been extra hard because hubby has been out of town. I have been taking pain meds regularly throughout the day. I know what the problem is, it is the weather here. "Winter" here is a daily change.. sometimes hourly. The temperature can shift by as much as 40 degrees in a matter of a couple of hours and that just KILLS me. That and my hormones this week and being busy over Thanksgiving weekend just has me in the weeds. Unfortunately, I think I am in for the long haul for the winter. I don't see things improving anytime soon. This is really hard for me because being in pain and unable to function normally is SUPER frustrating. I am praying for wisdom on how to get through this time. When to stop.. when to push through.....I think the thing that I am the most thankful for in my life is my family. My husband and my kids are the most incredible people God has put on this earth. My boys will do anything for me, from cleaning the whole house including vacuuming MY room..To now that Ethan is driving he is willing to take me anywhere. Even to girls night last night. :D I know it is the example of their father that has their hearts where they are. My husband will work all day and still come home and take care of me. He ends up doing my job and his so often. I feel bad, but blessed. God is good!
Thank you God for my life. Thank you for the good times and the hard times. Thank you for my hubby getting home safely today. Thank you for my kids. Thank you for the amazing people that they are. Thank you for my husband and for the example of a good father/person that he is. Thank you for all your blessings.

Back

So, after being gone for several weeks, I am back to update. I was blessed to have 2 weeks with my little sis and her hubby and new family. I had the greatest time!!!  As usual, my body gave out the second I was home (nearly) and I ended up with a stomach flu. BLAH.
I have to brag on my boys for a minute though. My boys are so great. :D While I was gone they kept up with their school and chores, they did all they were supposed to do and then some. They even got the house spotlessly clean for me the day day before I came home. They got along well and there was only 1 major problem... Ezekiel cut his finger really badly. But, he is doing well and that was WHILE hubby was home. :) Ok.. I guess that is the update for now.
Thank you Lord for my boys. Thank you for their good behavior. Thank you for hubby and his willingness to let me leave. Thank you for the ability to go and be with my sister. Thank you for all your many blessings!

My week

I am happy. I have done well this week! I haven't had any of the crankies that I was worried about. I have had some emotional issues, but I don't think that is related to the meds, I think that just is because I was good ole plain upset! I feel a lot better pain wise. I actually got quite a bit done today. I even cleaned the carpets in my house! I feel so much better about how my house looks now! That is one of the most frustrating things for me about my condition is that I am a VERY clean person and to watch my house go downhill... I am blessed to have a hubby and children that will clean up for me, but it is better when I can do it myself. Better emotionally. Thank you for all the prayers! 
Thank you God for a good day! Thank you for the ability to take care of my house. Thank you for the boys to help me move furniture. Thank you for friends lending me the machine to get my carpet clean. Thank you for the medication to help me feel better enough to do these things. Thank you for friends for prayer!

Pray for guys

Well, I guess this post is to ask for you to pray not only for me over the next week, but for my guys as well. I just started a round of steroids. That is good and bad. The good, it should kill this never ending flair... The bad, it makes me feel sick... the ugly, one of the side effects (which from the comment hubby made, I think I get) is a bad case of the grumpies. Not only that, but I should start my cycle any day now.. so, I will have double the grumpies. I am hopeful that I can be spared from this for this weeks so my family doesn't feel the need to duck and cover. Any prayers you can send our way would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your support! :D
Thank you Lord for the blessing of medication. Thank you for the Dr's that have the knowledge to help me. Thank you for my family and their willingness to put up with me. Thank you for loving me!

To do list

To do today:
Clean bathroom
Go to store
School kids
Grade school
Make dinner
Vacuum
...............
Wow.... the list can go on and on. Over the years I have had to teach myself the different "to do" lists. There is my list of things I want to/need to do, then there is the list of things that ACTUALLY get done (which could have nothing to do with the list I was PLANNING on getting done) and I have learned over the years that that list of things that does get done, is God's "to do" list. We forget that God has our days planned. Down to the seconds..From what cleaning should I do today... to every breath that we take. I have learned that my personal to do list has changed as well. I am now not as concerned about getting the dishes done or the mopping done.. now my to do list has things on it like, get out of bed. Sit with the kids while they do school. Sometimes that turns into sit in the chair in the living room while they do school. Some days making dinner gets done.. Then I have to put things on my to do list that I never expected to have to list to get done.. like getting out of bed ( I know I already said that.. but who thinks that have to "to do" that?!!?!?) And, then I have to try to stay up until a certain time. The clock hits 3 in the afternoon and I want to fall back into bed and stay there till tomorrow or later.
I want to encourage all the moms out there when you are making your to do list for the day, pray while you are doing it. Ask God to show you what He has planned for your day. Then don't let your list become so important that you are upset if "all" you get done in a day is 1/3 of that. God has the most important things for you to do already mapped out. At the end of the day, you can thank God for ordering your day and helping you complete exactly what He had for you to do!!
Thank you Lord for ordering my life. Thank you for giving me your "to do" list every day. Thank you for giving me the strength to get done what you want me to do every day. Thank you for as little or as much as it feels like to me. Thank you for caring what I do in my day. Thank you for wanting the best for me. Thank you for loving me.

Back to normal

Well, our friends went home. We are praying and trying not to be overly hopeful, but hubby is hoping to help our friend get a job at Dell. That would be so amazing!! We haven't lived in the same town for 10 years... or well almost.. and it is TIME!!! We had the greatest time with them!!  I also had alot of pain this week. there were times that it was easy to ignore and just function. Then there were other times that I had to be down. At least I had my friend to visit with when I was down!! :D The greatest thing about the week was that everyone was happy and got along. The dogs.. (all 7 of them) were happy with each other. The kids.. (all 6 of them) were great together!! Very little interference from the grownups. The adults all had fun together. Hubby had to work which was hard because he and John didn't get as much time together. The most important thing this trip did was show my hubby just how much he really misses having a close friend. He has friends here but it isn't the same thing. Just like me. I have friends here, but it isn't Jeni. She has been with me through all the important things in my adult life and the freindship I have with her is not something you can come by easily. :-)
Thank you God for this time with our friends. Thank you for blessing the time with fun and relaxation. Thank you for all being relaxed and happy. Thank you for the thoughts of them moving close to us. Thank you for a good week. Thank you for every blessing.

blessings

Well, I figure if I can use this format to complain, I also need to use it to celebrate!!  Today is Friday! That means my wonderful, handsome, sweet, amazing, hubby will be home tomorrow!! Last night I have to sleep alone!! I am SO HAPPY!! I hate when he is gone!!  Second, we were blessed with the gift of borrowing a vacuum so my house looks clean!! :D  And on top of all of that, our best best friends are here!! They got here this morning from Florida and it is SO GREAT to be with them!!! We have been friends for 13 years. Fast friends and forever friends! Our kids have been close from baby hood and moms and dads and just the whole family. What a wonderful blessing to have them here. On top of that, God fully provided the money and transportation that got them here. He laid it on the heart of some friends of theirs at home to help them get here!!  I am in debited to them!!  This day has been great! And I know that the next 7 days will be too!!!  My pain level is pretty high today and I have been on meds, but I think I can take it with the distraction of my dear dear friends being here!!!
Thank you God for the blessing of friends!! Thank you for bringing them to us for this time!!  Thank you for bringing my hubby home to me! Thank you Thank you!!!!!