Well, I am here at the end of my day. Seems that there is some sort of bug going around my house. I had a bad stomach yesterday, still have the back side of it.. Today, hubby and Ez start feeling crummy. They will probably be better tomorrow. For me, I think it is just starting. Tonight, my pain level is UP. Alot. I am really going back and forth with myself about if I want to take meds or not. I feel like I need to wait till I just can't take it anymore because they are narcotic medications. I know they can be addictive. Last thing I want is to be addicted to meds... prescription or not.. it isn't good. It has been a week or so since I have taken any, so I think I am ok. Just a worry I have. I am proud of myself cause I have kept up with grading for the kids this week. I also, made dinner tonight. YAY ME! I know I should be doing that every day. Half the time, I look at the clock and go.. wow, it is already 4:30 and I have no meat out or anything! I need to get better about that. I have so many things I need to get better about.
Tonight, I am just tired. I am tired of not feeling well. I am tired of the pain. I am tired of feeling like a bad wife, mom, teacher. I am trying to be what/who God wants me to be but am constantly feeling like there is no way I am doing as well as He wants me to. I am trying to figure out why he decided I need the extra difficulty of my health along with trying to take care of the household things that I am supposed to do. I am REALLY trying to find the joy in it. UGH.
Thank you God for getting me through this day, with most everything done. Thank you that I have kids and a hubby that are understanding. Thank you for the fact that no matter how bad I feel, it could be worse. Thank you for saving me. Thank you for every breath I take. Thank you for reminding me to be thankful.
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