What do you know.

Well, what do you know. I say I am going to do this, and I did it. Not in a month, or 3. Right now. 
I guess I will get right into it. I am starting this new blog to talk about what is going on in my life day by day. Not all the fun cute stuff that my good buddy Sydni does. Not the fun interesting pictures of my kids... My life just isn't, and right now can't be, that fun. 
Right now, I am in a season of dealing with daily struggles that stem from my diagnosis several years ago of fibromyalgia. Most people don't even know what that is. Some Dr.s still think that it isn't even a real thing. A "trash can" diagnosis that you give when you can't find any other reason for the symptoms that a patient is having. There are so many things that are a part of FM from pain all over the body that varies in every way from place to severity. Another part of it is depression. Sometimes I deal with that well, I can recognize where I am headed, and do whatever I can to stay away from that dark place, and move on. Other times, no matter how much I want to, or how hard I try, that hole sucks me in. And there are times that it is so deep and so dark, I can't see anything else. Those are REALLY bad days. Also a part of this is higher anxiety/inability to deal. Chaos STRESSES ME OUT!!  I can't take all the noise I used to be able to handle, and I can't stand clutter or messes. ask my kids that have to sweep, mop and vacuum daily and wash the bathrooms every day because I can't do it and I can't handle it not being done. Another part of it is sleeplessness/constant exhaustion. I could sleep 0 hours or 12 and I will be just as tired no matter what. 
So these are just a piece of what I experience every day, BESIDES trying to be the best wife I can to my beloved and being a good mom to 3 active growing boys. Including homeschooling them. I also babysit for my 3 year old nephew and a 6 month old baby of a friend. I have 1 more year of babysitting then I am done with that. And that is 1 year TOPS. 
So, get ready for the ride!! But, this is not a free ride. I desire, hope for and expect loving correction and guidance and prayer during this season of my life. Anything anyone feels the Lord is leading them to say, please don't ignore that urging. Whatever God is trying to teach me through this time, I want to learn it. I cherish the words of my friends and loved ones like you wouldn't know. 
Here we go now my peeps!!!  Buckle in, put your seat backs and tray tables to their full and upright position and hang on for the ride of my life!!